Hey again Stranger

Hey, it’s uhhh… been awhile. I originally started this newsletter as a funny bit to subject whoever signed up for it to the whims of my brain. I’ve found that to be wildly successful so far, but the thing that I didn’t account for is the other half of my brain, the one that shuts down and shuts out people when I’m stressed, overwhelmed, and frankly, afraid. I’ve really been through the ringer the last few months. Career shit, life shit, family health shit. It’s been hard to figure out how to reach out to friends or people I’ve been close to to even being to explain the amount of shit I’ve had piled up. I tend to just hole up and try to push through it myself, and sometimes to means burning my mental state into the ground. Idk, it feels weird to say, but how do you push through this feeling of not being able to find the words to tell even your best friends what you’re going through? Feels like sometimes I’m physically in the room, but not emotionally present in a tangible way. My head is often thinking about eight other things, feeling like scattered papers strewn across the living room floor.

I did promise at the start of this thing that no two weeks would be the same, and I intend on keeping that promise going forward. So you’re probably thinking “hey I assumed you abandoned this project because you haven’t posted a single newsletter in 2025 and we’re almost halfway through March.” Honestly, you’d be correct in assuming as much, and I kind of thought about abandoning it as its absence grew longer and longer.

Something I’ve always struggled with in my life is consistency. As soon as something become routine, I tend to get bored, move on, and try to find some new hit of dopamine. It’s been a problem in my life as long as I can remember. I don’t know if it’s that I’m afraid of true commitment or undiagnosed ADHD. Who’s to say.

However, we’re going to keep trying, and that’s in big part to my pal Niki Grayson who started a really bangin newsletter that you can sign up for here: https://makeyouthink.club

Seeing other people I admire and enjoy being around go through similar struggles and overcome them makes me want to try and kick this bad habit more than anything. So I’m back hopefully with a little more regularity, but also giving myself the grace to understand that some weeks it might not work out, and I shouldn’t let that absence in my life dictate pushing forward.

A bit of a different vibe this time around, and I promise we will get back to the goofs and yapping about bullshit, but I really think I just needed to get this out into the world.

Stay strong, fight fascism, and hug your loved ones a little tighter. See y’all next week.